Why I am now an agnostic: A response to irrational certainties of atheism & theism

Though they may not like it, but I am putting the theist X and atheist Y in one box. I find them similar, asserting their opinions with unparalleled certainty. One says ‘god made this universe’ while Y says ‘god did not’. They are so sure about their conclusions as if they had massive amounts of data to start with. To attribute the origin of the universe to a supernatural being, X must’ve studied this universe precisely and massively. The atheist Y dismissed the idea of a supernatural being because of what? Because he actually knew how the universe is and how it works, so that he could ascertain its origin being whatsoever. But did both X and Y really know what the fundamental reality is? Do they even ‘know’ how this perceived reality works?

Both X and Y think they know stuff and so they are in a position to go far into the past, pierce through the layers of the perceived reality and take a stand on their conclusions. But what about the limits of human perception? The people studying neurology and biology have come across the fact that to say ‘my senses give me the true picture of reality’ is dubious. We don’t even know if the image being constructed by our brains is really a true reflection of the outside reality, let alone the fundamental reality and that too about the origin of the universe.

To say that ‘I perceive reality’ and provide as a proof the testimonies of masses is actually an ‘appeal to popularity’ logical fallacy (which can also prove that god exists). The long list of cognitive biases we unconsciously use is a proof that we are fallible. To accept or reject a supernatural entity, is going way too far. We’ve not even known completely about the natural world and the forces of nature yet, what to say of the supernatural. That ego, that I can know everything no matter what, may lead one to cook stories up.

To me, this fallibility has made me a bit humble. There is a limit to my knowledge of truth. The fact is that even after forsaking belief in a god, I’ve not put myself into any kind of a jeopardy. But I am not an atheist anymore, I am not at the extremes of certainty, certainty about the fundamental reality, in front of which we’re probably not even subatomic particles. I am an agnostic. I don’t even ‘know’ by myself about what actually happens in my phone when I click a picture from it, let alone ascertaining the happenings of the fundamental reality, taking my umwelt as the fundamental reality and say ‘no supernatural entity exists’. I suspend my judgement as a rational response to such a puzzle and my limits against solving it.